It brings me so much joy as I remember the night when I experienced the closeness of Holy Spirt. It was the night I cried out to God for help not knowing what to do.

A decision had to be made during the COVID-19 epidemic- whether or not to travel to be with my daughter for her upcoming delivery.  I had many concerns regarding the trip, but relying on God’s Word gave me peace and confidence of His protection (Psalms 91, Exodus 12:13-14).

However, the Thursday before my flight (which was on the following Tuesday), listening to the news about the coronavirus spreading, flights being canceled, the possibility of my husband being alone for longer than 5 weeks, all started to bother me. The peace I had until then started to change. Physically I felt the churning and wanted to just sleep hoping it would go away by morning. Before going to bed I prayed for wisdom to make the right decision. I was tossing and turning trying hard to come up with an answer.

In the middle of the night I woke up and Holy Spirit started to expound on Hebrews 11:1. He highlighted that my faith was not complete. He asked, “How can you see My protection (things not seen yet) if you don’t travel?” The ball was in my court, it was up to me to answer. I asked for forgiveness for my worry and fear.

After this, I also had a mental picture of a big bubble hoop coming to the door. Again, it was up to me to step out of my door and into the bubble to experience His protection. His promises never change but I had a part to play in receiving the fulfillment of His word. This conversation with Holy Spirit gave me peace and rest and I was able to sleep peacefully. God saw my concerns and His Spirit gave me comfort and direction.

In the morning I did not mention this to my husband before our family prayer, but as soon as he finished praying, with a firm and confident voice he said, “You are going to Chicago!” With confidence, I responded, “Yes I am!” The night before both of us did not know what to do and I shared with him my conversation with Holy Spirit.

The intimacy of God the Holy Spirit is what I want to highlight. It was a sweet fellowship and there was no trace of disappointment for my anxious thoughts, or displeasure in my half-hearted faith. Overflow of His love, His gentleness, His patience and His grace is what I experienced as He helped me navigate through the scripture.

Confident of His protection, I made the trip and had a wonderful time with my daughter and family and newborn grandson!

Desire more of Holy Spirit, He is waiting for a deeper intimate relationship with us.